I’ve talked a little about this in my newsletter and on Instagram, but lately I’ve been going through some deep healing on my end. People and things I thought I was over for good showed up again in my life in new ways, which was really frustrating at first – like excuse me, I thought we were done with this nonsense? I learned, though, that the reason they’ve appeared again is that now I’m ready to face them head-on. I’ve been taking an active approach to them this time around and while I still have so much work to do, I know I’m strong enough to face these issues and conquer them!
What better way to get to the root of these deep issues than with a tarot spread? I created this one to help me get to the bottom of some old hurts and figure out how to let them go and move on. While you can do this spread for any number of problems at any time of year, I think it’s especially relevant for fall – letting go of the old and turning inward for a season of quiet reflection.
Below is an example reading I did with this spread so you can see it in action! It’s brief because I don’t want to whine about my issues for whole paragraphs, but you can totally go as in-depth if you want.
The deck I’m using is The Linestrider Tarot by Siolo Thompson, first edition! You can order the second edition here. (Amazon links are affiliate links! They’re not sponsored – it just means that if you order something, I make a tiny commission at no extra cost to you. Thanks for supporting Lavender Moon ♥) I can’t say enough good things about this deck, it’s one of my faves! The tarot card case was made by GearBoxLeather on Etsy – he can totally make you a custom one if you message him!
I trotted out my trusty celestite, as it’s a great stone for healing. I find the energy of this one to be very gentle and supportive.
Let’s dig into the reading!
1. What is the deep-rooted issue? Knight of Cups: A few really tumultuous relationships, both platonic and romantic, have left me really afraid of giving my whole self in my current relationships. (Isn’t that always the way? Why does that stuff suck so bad?)
2. How is it manifesting in my life? The Hermit: I’ve really withdrawn into my shell lately, and it’s hard for me to be social and meet new people – while I’m not always aware of it, I definitely do pull inward as a defense mechanism against getting hurt by new interactions. Even in my romantic relationship, I’m afraid of what will happen if I let my thoughts and feelings come out sometimes.
3. How can I let it go? Death: Well… by letting go! Honestly, these things are in the past and the people aren’t even ones I see or talk to anymore. Yet I’m still guilty of checking up on their social media from time to time… I’m obviously never going to be happy with what I find there, so I need to just leave that stuff alone! The one perpetuating these old ties is me, and there’s no reason I need to keep torturing myself like that.
4. How can I heal and move on? Six of Cups: I need to change the way I’m looking at the past. Rather than focusing on the hurt, I need to look at the good times that were had while these relationships were in their prime. There’s always the possibility that a friendship or relationship will end, but that doesn’t mean you can’t have fun while it lasts!
5. What lesson can I learn from this? Ten of Cups: If I can find a way to learn from these past relationships and embrace them for what they were, rather than focusing on the negatives, I can enjoy much more harmony and fulfillment in my present relationships. Everything is a learning opportunity, even the bad things!
So there you have it! What are you working on healing right now? If you end up using this spread, let me know how it works out – I’d love to hear it! 😀 <3 I hope you have a very happy start to your autumn!
